So the boy I was seeing and I just broke up. It was pretty mutual, which was surprising because I had spent pretty much the entire time we were together gushing about him to friends, family and who ever would listen. He was set to fulfill everything I was looking for in a partner. He is creative (and as Lindsay had point, made a gingerbread house from scratch, just like us), silly, expressed an interest in future travels to Iceland, and just seemed like a good, safe and smart choice. I spent all day yesterday being sad. Then I cried on the phone to my sister. And now? I’m bummed, but OK. It was just over. All of a sudden he wasn’t the future partner any more. It turns out he had just got out of a three year relationship and is probably leaving the country sooner than later. I was already thinking about awkward future situations in our relationship where I met someone I found more interesting, attractive and a better match.
I’ll admit, I’m still listening to the Pandora station that’s playing Destiny Child’s Independent Women and Mary J. Blige’s Family Affair. OH MY GOD. Now Pandora is playing Mariah Carey’s Always Be My Baby. WTF. This is my life. I don’t even know what this means. On Tuesday I had this in my head. I NEVER have songs stuck in my head.
It also doesn’t help that I was listening to RadioLab which in this episode relates the story from Aristophanes about the longing many of us feel for another half to make us whole. So I’m looking for my other half, but really just someone that I can count on, and sent texts to like, I JUST FOUND OUT MY BOSS’S MIDDLE NAME IS RAGING BUFFALO! AND HE’S NOT EVEN NATIVE AMERICAN! I am now thinking about getting a tattoo of a tyranasaurous rex that says “dinosaurs don’t need boyfriends” which is born from yet another disappointing experience in dating. Not really. I think I’m just still in that unhinged state.
On the plus side, I’m going to North Bend and Snoqualmie on Sunday with friends, which is where Twin Peaks was filmed.
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Oh man. Bummer. But very realistic with the whole different nationality thing. I hope North Bend/Snoqualmie were amazing. I am very jealous. Sam and I have been dreaming about our future pilgrimage there for ages.